I Am Absolutely Head Over Heels in Love with You and I Fucking Hate It

And I’ve felt this way since just after we met. I of course keep this to myself for a few reasons.

· I value your friendship very much and I don’t want to screw with that.

· You’re married and from what I can tell very happily and I’m not a home wrecker.

· Even if you weren’t married, I don’t think I’d be your type. I’m not most men’s type too tall and too thick.

But it’s to the point where I think about you every day. When we talk, I get so happy. When you came to visit you made my year after not seeing you in the flesh in three years (thanks covid).

I’ve tried dating others, but they all pale in comparison. I’ve talked about my feeling about you to others. Some have suggested I tell you about how I feel and just…no! I see no upsides in telling you. Others have suggested I cut you off, don’t talk to you anymore and I can’t see how that will help. You won’t cease to exist.