(reposting. I have been posting for a while. Have had few chats but havent found a match yet. I take this seriously and I know what I want and don't want. I am looking for the one)

About me: I’m in mid 40s, 5'10", 170 lbs, fit/athletic, full head of hair, carry well. Well traveled, well read, well groomed, enjoy rich deep conversations. well-read, well-groomed, full head of salt and pepper hair, well-read, well-traveled, drug-disease free.

I’ve been told I’m handsome, easy to talk to, and carry myself well (and nope, not just by my mom—this comes from potential APs).

At home: I have a wife and 2 kids. Healthy and happy family (Outside bedroom). Inside, its dead. I have done everything including the usuals (cleaning, cooking, running errands, planning, preparing, dates) to growing myself (be happy when not feeling well, smile, talk, resolving conflicts without taking things personally) to seeking help (individual and couple therapy). Divorce is not an option (yes I have thought this through). I know I need an AP and I have made peace with it.

At work: I am thriving in my career in Seattle greater area. Love what I do and work doesnt feel work. Its satisfying.

I have had an AP before. Met her in person in the gym. We worked out together, found friendship, developed feelings, provided support to each other when we needed, vented what was bothering us, talked through our problems. Our relationship did turn physical once we established genuine care and trust. Best time of our lives.

Its been a year and a half since my AP moved away and we called an end to a beautiful relationship with tears in our eyes and a full heart.

Looking for: I am looking to recreate that connection again. If you can related to above, lets chat. After talking with several people here, I have come to realize, is truth and honesty prevails all. Why am I here and what I am looking for. Happy to chat.