At this point, my need to feel desired, respected, adored, and lusted after is so much more overpowering than my need for respectful monogamy.

My longtime boyfriend of 10 years disrespects me by neglecting my needs, so why should I worry about disrespecting him? I love the life we've made together, but I want to have my cake and eat it too.

I made an account on AM a couple weeks ago, but deleted it out of fear of being caught. Reddit seems like the hardest platform to find a catch, but is the most anonymous method. So, here I am, casting my net.

I wish I knew what I was looking for. I am so out of my element here, that right now I'm just looking to talk to others who know how empty I feel and can maybe fill some of that emptiness themselves. I admit I have a thing for older men, chalk it up to daddy issues. Absolute discretion would be required.

I'd love to mess around with a woman, too, if the right opportunity arises. That would be completely new territory for me, but it is such a dream of mine to eat someone's pussy until she's cumming in my mouth. Plus, boobs just rock.

As for me, I am 27 with a Bachelor's that I use every day. I am not impressed by money because I have my own. I admit I am flawed; I have a tendency to be drawn to the taboo, to the things I'm not supposed to do. I yearn for the days where my hair was being pulled as I was choking down cock, with an almost therapy-like heart-to-heart afterwards. I miss the dates spent daydreaming together about what we need from one another, and to laugh about it afterwards. I am awkward and shy and it will take me eons to trust anyone enough to show my true self. I'm definitely not looking for a fling, and if you can't make me laugh, it's a no-go.

If you're willing to be patient and kind with me, I think I have plenty to offer (perhaps everything that you're missing from your partner, too?) I'm 5'3", white, and about 160 lbs. I lean towards alt fashion and lifestyle, bonus points if you're a metalhead. I admit I have little in terms of physicality to offer, but I like to believe that I more than make up for it with enthusiasm.

I'd like to meet in person eventually, if things work out. My closest city is Fort Wayne, Indiana. I don't travel enough to get away with doing it solo.