Hello M,

Reddit says that it’s been a little over 230 days since we first met, but it feels like much much longer than that. But also much shorter than that.

I’ve seen the various missed connection type post on here, always hoping and praying that it would never be me posting such a thing, but here we are. I miss you dearly, despite only the momentary spark of a week in which we knew each other before you disappeared. But what a week it was! A week so full of giddiness, excitement, wonder, and genuine happiness that almost a year later I still remember it as vividly as the day I met you. Weeks, months, years of sadness and a feeling of being lost in life gone in a flash. A feeling of hope. That instantaneous, fiery spark of attraction on all levels that most people here only dream of - it was real. Very real. And because that fire burned so bright, I know full well that it cannot be relit by anyone other than yourself.

Which is why I am here putting into words that which I have thought about endlessly over the past year. I still don’t know why you disappeared so suddenly, and it isn’t my place to ask. But it is my place to offer you as much comfort as you offered me. The pure, unconditional kindness and warmness that you showed during our conversations so early on. There was no “getting to know you phase”. We knew each other and were comfortable with each other immediately. It was like finding your long lost love after years apart, picking up right where you left off all those years ago.

All I know is this - I miss you. I miss your laugh, your dog (so bravely going to work with you everyday), your eyes, and most of all your soothing voice. And, in the off-chance that telegram was deleted out of haste and you weren’t able to log back into your old Reddit account, then I wish this post a lighthouse for you to find your way back to me. If then, and now, are not the right times for what I am looking for - then I wish you the absolute best in life. You are a wonderful person, and deserve nothing less than the most love, compassion, and kindness that someone can give to you.

All the best and forever yours, A

PS: I still have a sickening fear of discord.