I've been stuck in a dead bedroom for basically my entire 12 year marriage. It was hard. We both came from deeply religious backgrounds. We struggle through so much bullshit and trauma together and that has bonded us in a way nothing else could. However, we probably never should have gotten married. Our sexual tastes vary wildly. I enjoy aggressive, passionate, kinky sex and she enjoys the softer things. Our drives are mismatched and I feel like I've spent years never getting what I want.

So what am I looking for? I don't think I just want a one night stand, though those are always fun. I'm really looking to find someone I find irresistible. I want to message you when I think about you, I want you to constantly be in my mind. When were together, I never want to keep my hands off of you. To drink you in. To make you feel like you're the only woman left in this world.

I have no interest in leaving my wife, we've just been through too much together. I think keeping boundaries that separate our two lives are important. I want to create a dream space for us. Where our fantasies are freely explored.

So what can I offer you? Well first off I'm a writer (Not my day job yet but working on it) and I'm a pretty good one (I'm going to a highly competitive graduate program this fall). I've been told my sexting skills are incredibly good, and I think that's very true. I'm kinky, I enjoy bondage and CNC but also have a lot of fun with some of the more vanilla flavors of sex so long as it's passionate. I am emotionally mature, understanding, and respect the boundaries that you may put up. I feel deeply and don't mind saying those feelings. I can paint a vision in your mind of how we will be and how we are.

I've also been on a major self improvement kick since November. I've lost 45 pounds (Went from 315 in November to 269 this morning!) And have been working out four days a week consistently since November as well. I enjoy looking, I keep a clean space, I'm organized and enjoy playing around with tech. I love film, and discussing it. If you're passionate about literally anything I'm going to love hearing you talk about. There's nothing sexier than a woman talking about something she loves.

So feel free to send me a chat. I'd be down to travel but probably not much further than an hour or two outside the LA/OC area. If we click maybe we can advance to the next level. Either way, I hope to hear from you soon.

EDIT: I am based in Orange County California