Ok, I'm going to try and keep this as short as possible. I'm a 30 year old white male in a major city in Texas. I am a bartender/server (over 12years) by default. I'm pretty good at it but I'm better in the kitchen (also 12 years), I just make more money in the FOH. No assets, no car payment, but a ton of financial obligations. On probation with a smart start interlock device on my car for 2 more years. I still owe the lawyer 7k from that whole sandstorm of bad decisions. Rent is $1300, probation is $150 total, lawyer is $500, and I drive a paid off v8 Yukon (gas is killer).

On top of all that my car won't start. I have changed everything the mechanics (yes multiple different mechanics) have suggested I have replaced. Alll told I've spent 3k on repairs and tows. In order to pay for this I took an advance on my next paycheck. While all this was going on I developed a heroin addiction. Employers have definitely noticed and let me go. I got a new job rather quickly and was let go from that one on my second day (I was trying to cold Turku quit and looked like death I'm sure).

After being let go they took out the what I owed them in my next paycheck. So my last paycheck was $0.06. I have absolutely no money, rent and electricity are coming up at the beginning of next month not to mention probation and lawyers.

What do I do? I mean I know get sober, get a job, and all that but is there anything with like a timeline goal/order I should be expecting of my self.

How do I not suck at life? I just would like to enjoy being alive for once. I need help, direction and a ton of other things. How can I be a better human and get out of this?