I'm now (20M) and a active duty Marine. For my 19th birthday I didn't do anything as I just finished bootcamp and for my 17 and 18 birthday before then I spent alone. I'd often go to the store and buy one serving of cake for myself. Just eating it in my room by myself. Honestly I'd cry a little and then just game. Here I am spending another birthday by myself. I would normally get really emotional and down when it's just a week away from my birthday. Knowing well it's another birthday I spend alone. Don't get me wrong though I get text happy birthday from family.But for one there not here and I don't see family much anymore and I honestly could care less about gifts. I just want someone who wanting to spend a single day with me, I've tried asking some guys in my platoon but I was told to busy or that no one cares. It sucks becuese that's the truth by the looks of it. Maybe I'm being selfish and just asking to much. I have no idea if it's childish to ask for such a thing now since I'm 20. But I'd just really would like to have one day where someone wants to hangout with me. I feel pathetic about myself becuese I'd fantasized about having fun on my birthday and hanging out with people. But I'm here alone by myself. Just another day I guess. I have no idea if I'm in the right or wrong for feeling the way I feel.