I’m a 23 year old guy and I have never had a girlfriend, I’ve never even been on a date. I recently graduated college and working full time with only a single best friend in my social circle (aside from my older sister).

I failed to date in high school and in college. I always got turned down and I always got ghosted on dating apps. I therefore have zero experience with love or relationships. My point is that I have come to realize that I might be alone for a long time. I have always thought about and craved finding love. But now, I’m beginning to feel that it is simply too far out of reach for me.

I’m not saying that I will be alone forever or anything, only that things look very bad for me right now. I’m jealous of everyone I know who has a partner and sometimes that jealousy and the sadness can be overwhelming. I even sometimes worry that it will never happen. Or something my worry is that if one day that I do find someone that’s she’ll have far more experience than me and think that I’m weird for having none. I also worry that I might experience retrospective jealousy.

I don’t know what it is I want or need to hear at the moment but if you have any words to spare about my situation please share them. I feel that I will not be sharing my life with anyone for a long time, and sometimes I feel that maybe I don’t deserve to because I lack something…