I finally got a job opportunity I still have to go for an interview. But two jobs doing what I want to do want me. ME of all people to come in. I also have a friends mom wanting me to shadow her company and maybe work for her if things go right. I mean this is a dream come true for me. Yet I have so many obstacles in my way. I don’t know what to do and I feel trapped because if I do what I want I’m afraid that I’ll loose so much. I live in a small town with not many honestly no opportunities doing what I want to do which is interior design and art. My parents there supportive but to the point that’s it’s whatever is just good for them. My upbringing wasn’t the greatest and I’m still healing from a lot of it. So nowadays being a young adult without there license but trying so hard.I don’t have my license yet but I have a car. The car is because my boyfriends family got it for me and I appreciate them with every fiber of my being. My parents when it comes to driving me to jobs it has to be in a 15 minute drive radius which small town = absolutely nothing unless you head towards the city which they won’t do that area. Because they don’t want to drive. This is a text my dad sent me because I asked him to take me to an interview “I will take you to the interview. However, driving to Dorsey Hall Road in Ellicott City is not doable over the long term.” The place is only 22 minutes away. Ellicott city is 15 minutes from us but it is always a no. Even when I find jobs they like that are closer to me and in the direction they like if it isn’t in there schedule or works with them it’s a no. Like I understand in a way but same time I don’t because it’s hard having the people who say oh you need a job,a career. You need to start your life not even help you start your life. There too busy ranting to you about how they messed up in life or how I am making mistakes already or to busy with there own lives to even help there own daughter. The person who has honestly helped me start my life more then anything recently is my boyfriend and his family which makes no sense to me but they have. My boyfriend he’s older then me he lives at home with his parents still due to financial to save money. But at this point we are spending more money with how much we spend seeing each other since I literally already live with him half the time. I guess at this point I’m trying to decide if it’s best to talk to his parents and see if they would let me move in with them. I know it would be another mouth to feed since they already have there other adult kid with her two kids living there but I’d help out a lot. I’d get a job and being there would be easier because my boyfriend has helped me in the past with getting places I need to be more then my own parents. At the same time I don’t want to be a burden to them because they are so amazing to me and I know they have alot already. I just know that right now it isn’t the time for me and my boyfriend to get a place it’s too expensive. But how we are seeing each and spending time with each other with commute isn’t saving money either. Plus I’ve been wanting to move out of my parents for a year now but I’ve been scared. My parents have always said you can move out and whenever things have gotten bad I’ve kinda just ran off and stayed at friends like they know Where I am but then I’ve gotten threats from them to throw out my stuff or that there gonna turn off my phone. I honestly don’t know what to do and I feel scared because I want to leave so badly Especially if my boyfriends parents say yes because this will help me in so many ways But what if my parents hate me and don’t realize I’m just trying to heal myself That I need to grow up and there not really helping I’m just tired of being stuck here in slow motion when I actually have people willing to help me get started with my life Yet there not helping