I'm 26(M) and dropped out of college after a year or so when I was 22 and went straight in the workforce because I couldn't handle the stress and workload of college.

Since then I've been jumping from a job to another and never staying in the same workplace for more than a year. I've been through all kinds of differents jobs and they were all low payed and mostly shitty.

Im trying to find what I want to do of my life and I realize nothing is really interesting enough for me to commit to it... Many told me I just haven't found it yet but I'm slowly losing any hope of ever doing something I love.

I'm working at a job now that I trained 2 years for and I realize that I hate it. Quitting it would mean disappointment for my family who is done with me trying and failing again and again so I feel trapped.

Problem is that I tend to be between average and good but not excellent at anything I do. It's just that I disliked everything I tried....

Am I in depression? Or just a failure of a human?

Success is something I truly don't understand and never really experienced.

I'm smart enough to realize it, but not enough to fix it.

Is there someone who lived or lives something similar? What did you do to help you find your way? Anyone has any tips?

I'm so lost and so scared to fail again.