I never used to care about social media, but now all I can think about is the attractive rich kids that I graduated with who post vacation pictures to Instagram and get 250ish likes.

I graduated two years ago and these are kids I didn’t give a shit about then, but I recently checked my personal account and some of them had unfollowed me. I didn’t use my account for a while, because I was busy living my real life, but I looked and they were still following my couple of best friends who went to the same school.

I had a small group of core friends and was always more of a “quality over quantity” type of girl anyway, but recently I’ve been agonizing over what I could’ve been or done differently.

The most I’ve gotten on a picture is a hundred likes, and I know that this shouldn’t make me feel like shit, but it does. All I can think about is why I didn’t fit in with these kids, why they don’t follow me (or “care” about me), and how their lives are probably so much better than mine. This is made even worse by knowing that they don’t think about me at all.

I even used to have a meme account where I’d get hundreds of likes/followers a day, so I KNOW that likes don’t determine your worth or how happy you are, but for some reason my mind keeps making that connection.

Advice on how to stop caring or ease my anxious thoughts is much appreciated. (I don’t think trying to gain followers is the answer lol)