I need to sleep because it’s first day of classes tomorrow, but I can’t sleep because I feel like I need to just talk it all out. I finally had enough of the abuse and am okay with the fact that we aren’t ever going to speak again, but fuck my codependency issues making me feel so empty inside with no one to talk to at this hour. I want to cry, but I’ve always had a hard time crying. I had a panic attack today for the first time in awhile but my SDIT did deep pressure therapy and we got through it together. I don’t even know what I need advice on. Maybe on how to get over codependency issues? But that’s probably something I should talk to my therapist about. What can I do to help myself feel well enough to at least fall asleep? I can’t watch tv because I’m too sensitive to light and sound right now. I don’t want to read. I’m already cuddling with my pup.