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I’m constantly salivating over some pair of headphones, or something. I’m never satisfied.

I made up my mind that I would end this year with a great achievement, that I’d do something.

Instead, I keep fizzling our. I keep getting distracted. I’m constantly lethargic and unwilling to work. Literally all I want to do is to listen to music and watch movies all day.

Something is wrong with me. I used to be a discipline junkie. I would love life as I were a wannabe samurai trainee — up early at 4:30 am, every day would be a huge opportunity to live a beautiful life. Now, I’m just tired.

I keep losing myself in meditation: I just fall asleep.

I keep missing my appointments, just want to do nothing.

Am I depressed? I doubt it. Is my brain screwed up by instant gratification? I believe this is the answer.