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I (24f) have no friends in law school and I'm pretty sure it's because no on likes me...
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I started law school back in August 2018. It's in a new city so I know no one and have no family here. on the first day of orientation I arrived at the lounge area it was supposed to take place in about thirty minutes before it started and sat at an unoccupied table. I'm really introverted and very shy, but also on that particular day I wanted to be alone for a bit to soothe my anxiety. I also have anxiety that I take meds for. not more than 2 minutes passed before I was approached by a fellow student (25f) and invited to sit at her basically full table. I was a little annoyed about that but I obliged.

the table had eight people including myself, evenly split with men and women, and ages ranging from 22 to 32. one student suggested that we go around and introduce ourselves which eventually led to further conversation, and ended with everyone joining a group chat intended for future study groups.

fast forward maybe a week later to the first day of classes. I arrived maybe ten minutes before the class was to start and was greeted by three students I had met from that table during orientation: Sandra (25f, who had approached me that day), Liam (22m), and Alex (31m). Sandra and Liam were sitting next to each other then there was an open seat, then Alex. I greeted them with a smile and sat in that open seat. I thought, "I'll probably be hanging with these guys from now on, cool". I thought wrong.

So here are some situations highlighting why I suspect I'm not highly favored at this school:

maybe two or three weeks into classes I reached out to that aforementioned group chat asking if anyone was ready to start that study group. I was met with silence except for two who messaged me outside of the group chat. their replies were fruitless, however, after initially giving me hope, as nothing ever came of them.

fast forward again to a q&a session one of my professors was holding after class in which he'd asked how many of us were in study groups. I looked around to see quite a few members of the group chat raise there hands. that definitely got me in my feelings but I pushed on.

I barely got through that first semester earning two Cs and a B- in my three classes. I dropped down to two classes the next semester, hoping to better my efforts and I'd also planned to befriend at least one person. an opportunity showed itself early that semester. a fellow student's (f) hairstyle had caught my eye and I'd decided to go up to her and compliment it during the next break. I did so. I went up to her and another student (f) and explained to her how my best friend also wanted a similar hairstyle and whether she had advice/tips/whatever. she told me how she achieved the style, but then as I attempted to continue a conversation she turned back to the other student and, I guess, continued whatever conversation they'd had before I'd shown up. no transition, nothing. I was dismissed. so I walked away in awe.

later that semester I thought maybe things were looking up when I was approached not once, but twice by fellow students inviting me to after-school pastimes: laser tag and a house party. I gave both students my number so that they may contact me with further details, but I never heard from them. one of those students (f) now averts her eyes whenever we're in near proximity...

towards the end of that semester I decided to attend a BLSA (black law students association) meeting as a last effort to find someone to study for finals with. the meeting caught my eye as the topic was undergrad experiences in HBCUs (historically black college/University) and PWI (predominantly white institution). I thought the likelihood of bonding with someone over this would be high. again I thought wrong. I arrived at the room maybe ten minutes before the meeting was to start. I took a seat in the back of the room expecting someone to come and greet me and maybe invite me to sit with the others. I had this expectation because I was clearly the only non-regular and the attendance was so little leading me to believe they would be keen to attract more and please potential new members. apparently this was too big an assumption because neither happened. I left the meeting knowing I'd never go to another.

that second semester I got two C-s, putting me on academic probation, which brings me to this semester: in my two classes I will either need to get an A and a D or two Bs to get out of academic probation and not be kicked out of the school. I'm high key terrified.

some additional info that may help: -I'm black and greatly identify with my Nigerian heritage -I've had little issue making friends in my other school settings -i do gravitate towards other black people, but this situation has made me desperate and I'm now way more welcoming to all other races -until now I was sure I had the exact opposite of resting bitch face as I always used to be the subject of unsolicited approaches for conversation -I'm very accommodating (or two faced as I like to think) and often sacrifice my comfort for others -Alex had been a very strong contender as a buddy (he was one of the two people who had messaged me back after I asked about the study group) but he became distant and I suspect it's because of what I've observed to be a romantic relationship with another classmate and maybe that's all the female attention he's willing to give -my BLSA expectations came from undergrad where I was an officer in a similar organization -the group chat grew from the original eight members to about twenty, but is now inactive -i understand that some of this may be a pride issue...

I tried to be as detailed as possible but obviously feel free to ask for clarifications because I want to give as much context as possible. this is so weird (and now detrimental) to me and I gotta know why.

tl;dr - how do I make friends so I can have a study group so I can get out of academic probation and eventually graduate law school?

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