I was 1013'd (Georgia's involuntary commitment law) for the third or fourth time a few weeks ago after my dad beat the fuck out of me, and I didn't have anywhere to go (btw my finger is still broken from blocking a punch, so I'm going to try to make this short). I just got out about two weeks ago, stayed with friends in Atlanta for a bit, and came up to Pennsylvania to stay with another friend's parents. My friend's mom thinks I should just get a job in IT here (although I have been on disability and haven't really worked in a few years other than a month at Coachella). My friend thinks I should write a book (others have told me this, too). If I do write a book, I'm going to have to go somewhere nice to write--at least within walking distance of a decent coffee house. My dead boyfriend's parents (he died in June) said I could live with them in a tiny town in Georgia, which is within walking distance of a nice coffee house I played a show at once. My old friend in Berlin also said I could come stay with her, but it'd take me a while to save up for a passport and ticket (I get just over $1000/month in disability). And my friend in Hollywood said I could come stay with her, but she has a 2 bedroom with a boyfriend and 3 kids.

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But I can barely make a simple life decision. Everything I do is completely based on impulse. I think I have borderline personality disorder, and a psychiatrist I saw at a rehab last month said it could be possible, but I've only been diagnosed with PTSD, ADHD, and schizoaffective disorder. I've also been through a lot of shit and have SO many unresolved major issues and questions, which is a big reason I thought it'd be a good idea to write a book. I just wish I had a bunch of money so I could go stay at a fancy resort for a while--or even a nice rehab or psych facility that would let me write. But I only have Medicare and Medicaid. Any ideas?