Soooo this is a lot, and I swear I'm not being whiny when I go over all of this but I just want to give you a good idea of where I'm at before I explain what I need.

I have PTSD from an abusive marriage and severe Bipolar Disorder on top of that. I lost my Mom to cervical cancer in 2012 after I spent a year taking care of her, and my stepmom to cervical cancer in June (very brief battle, very sudden). I have a 5 year old daughter I've taken care of "on my own" since a few weeks after she was born. So far, since having her we've had to live with family in order to make things work. Right now I work a low key security job on weekends, 8 PM to 8 AM Saturday and Sunday nights and then I go to school full time during the week. I graduate with my AS in spring and I'm registered to start at our local 4 year next fall, and my midget and I are set to move into on campus housing at that time.

The problem: My brain is faultering. At first at I thought it might be the mood swings, but I don't think so. I'm taking my meds and I've been in a downswing for a long time now, very mild, and I really don't have any sign of an upswing. I just can't think clearly. I'm forgetting to eat, to feed my kid, my assignments, what day it is, how much is in my bank account, what bills I've paid, etc. I keep trying to figure out a good sleep schedule/exercise/eating schedule but I can't seem to keep anything straight. While I would normally say this was just depression it certainly doesn't feel like it. My interest in things is still at an average level, my ability to enjoy things, everything. My brain is just suddenly foggy as hell and it's having an impact on my self care and general health and what not.

I'm not sure what the correct option to take is. Try to find time to schedule another appointment with another timer in my phone that I'll forget and double book or whatever? Play with the dosages that have been working fine for months now? Go see the doctor who LOATHE to change my pills after finding something that finally works?

Blech.