I get scared having sex with new people sometimes and I wonder if this is one of the reasons that affect that? I think about them occasionally and have blocked a couple parts of it from my mind cuz they stressed me out. I'm also not sure if I'm right to call them "sexual assault". This was a few years ago. There were 2 incidents with 2 different people that happened around the same time. In the first incident, the guy got on top and I told him I didn't want to have sex. He seemed surprised and I still said no. After that, he wanted to slide my top up cuz he wanted to have skin-on-skin contact. I didn't want that but that happened. Then he kept poking me down there a couple times and I didn't like that but he found that sorta funny, I don't know, it was weird. Then a little while later, he basically made me give him a handjob ("just do it for a little bit") and he called me a wimp and it was just a really awkward situation and I didn't know what else to do.

In the 2nd incident, with another guy, we were trying to have sex but it was pretty uncomfortable and almost sort of painful, so at one point, I told him to stop and I had to say it a few times and he didn't till like 10 or 20 seconds later. This obviously is not as deep as other stories I see on here, and I know that, but man that bothered me because he actually seemed like a really respectful dude up until that point. The first guy also seemed really innocent and nice too.