3 months ago I surprisingly met a women from Reddit, she reached out via one of my posts. We clicked, hit it off and decided to meet as we live in the same city. Upon meeting her I didn’t expect to be completely floored by her absolute breathtaking beauty and mind.

She is married but in a broken, unloving marriage with a neglectful narcissist that she knows has no future. She Has two children one older one younger, she’s highly motivated, incredibly intelligent, compassionate and strong. She has an appetite for life I see in my self but rarely see in others.

After meeting a few more times, and spending time together when we could. I realized I had deep vast feelings for her which she communicated the same back to me. With her current situation I had no interest to upend her life, and create challenges for her younger child and add more stress to her alread stress filled home life with a Narcissistic and childish spouse.

We agreed to just keep it casual, and I could tell I was completely neck deep in love with this woman. Then her husband had suspicions and approached her, this made things challenging and she receded from me to protect her child, living situation, and overall life.

I absolutely 1000% completely support this decision, but knowing I was at fault in loosing contact with someone who may be my soulmate wasn’t something I thought would be this hard. I am a grown man, I have a prosperous successful career, and have all the opportunities in the world to go anywhere I want if I work hard enough.

Knowing there’s no amount of work I can do to get her back is heartbreaking. I am torn on the inside knowing I was the reason for my own pain. I also worry I created an environment or situation in her personal life that I can’t offer aid or support. Not being able to take direct responsibility for something I had a hand in creating makes me rethink if love is worth it.

Sometimes I wonder if it would be better just to keep quiet, stay the course, work myself into the ground. At least that pain I can control and to gain such ecstasy from someone who makes my soul ignite like never before, just to loose them in one fell swoop feels like a fever dream that I can’t wake up from.

If you’ve read this far, do me a favor and tell me your thoughts in the comments, has anyone ever delt with something similar??