So I got with this girl 6 years ago. At the time we were seeing each other and she then left me for another guy. She ended up having 2 kids with him. Anyway at the beginning of the year she came back to the area said she wanted to be with me and her ex is toxic but then she came back lived with me for 3 months and then left again to be with him.

She then came back again after 2 months, then left me again to go back to him. She keeps going back because of the kids, atleast this is what she is telling me. But everytime she does go back, she is sleeping with him.

Recently she came back again, but after 2 days she started being off with me, she doesn’t want to stay at mine.

I’ve literally just had enough now of being the rebound or second best. I know I don’t have kids with her but she keeps saying she loves me and wants to be with me but then after a day changes her mind and now it’s happening all over again where she would leave to go back there and block me again, then she would unblock me after 2 months and then love bomb me and want to see me or talk to me again and tell me she loves me, yet she’s sleeping there with him next to him in the same bed as him

What do I do, I’m not feeling too great about it, my life is practically was to be with her and I feel down and depressed with this whole situation. I get on really well with her I always have but I don’t know what to do anymore. I am not quite suicidal but I did have the thoughts that I should do that to make this all easier. Anyway I won’t do that don’t worry but I don’t know what to do. Any advice would be great thank you. 🙏🏼