29F was with my ex for five years and was going to have kids together etc but I was never really happy, he was a nice, good looking man that loved me but I always felt something missing.

I hardly laughed, he had no money (money doesn’t bother me but I mean rubbish with money it was all on me), he sometimes did not talk much, I did not enjoy the sex with him or kissing him.

I ended it and it was so hard to do but I thought surely there must be something better out there. Was this a mistake?

I’m now nearly 30, I’ve bought a house for my future family but I am not meeting anyone I like more than just physically, I isolate myself too as I am drained but now I am panicking as I do want to meet someone I fall in love with but maybe I was delusional and I should have stayed with my ex so that I had a family…