Background: I’m the eldest sibling/daughter in a traditional catholic Mexican family. As you know the eldest is always raise like a son (provider& protector) and if it’s a daughter you are still raise and expected to be a supporter/nurturer. I have always been my family’s leader and role model.

When my father had to step out of the country to do his immigration interview he had the talk with me of if I can’t come back look after your sisters and mom. When mom got cancer I got the talk of take care of your sisters and ensure their well-being. These talks were hard but they didn’t cause the anxiety that I am now having from this past weekend “the talk.”

My dad isn’t like other dads, he is very present and active as a father and husband. He is refer to as dad by many of my siblings and I friends. My parents home has always been “the house” people want to hang out cause of my parents warmth and guidance. Unfortunately, he hasn’t been doing well in terms of health. Well he sat my middle sister( 19yr old) & me (30yr old) down to talk about life insurances and what he wants us to do when he dies. My sister broke down and I couldn’t shed a tear(this is normal as I been trained to not show immediate emotion& my sister has been cuddle). My anxiety is through the roof.

I don’t want to be the one to carry out his last wishes or mediate the finances distribution. In my culture we strongly believe people know when their time is coming up…

How would I go about addressing this?