I’m a 20 year old college girl. I’m currently single. Always have been. I’ve always been cynical but especially of late. I am bombarded by the idea of being in a relationship. “Get off social media” you might say, but my friends are in them and even when I pass ones in public, I roll my eyes.

Everyone tells me it’s jealously but it doesn’t feel like the complete motivator behind my emotions. I can admit there are benefits to relationships. There are some ideas of a relationship I think would be nice. While away from my family at college, I’m naturally missing intimacy and being touch starved. Of course, I find boys around me attractive.

But I still see lots of negatives and I’d never get into a relationship if I wasn’t completely feeling it. I’m not desperate and I have high standards. Are all relationships cringe? I see my guy friends getting into relationships claiming they would literally “die for her; she goes I go”. Sir, you’ve known her for a week. I don’t want to get in a relationship if it looks like that. Are they all like this? Is being in a relationship just not for me?

Tldr; I haven’t been in a relationship before because I’d never get into one without being certain that it’s something I want. I know I’m young and I don’t have to be in one, but parts of me want one.