Ok where to begin. I’m 39 male and not the most confident person in the world. I do have friends but I’m kind of a loner. My mum had dementia and passed recently. It really took a lot out of me. Trying to explain to my sister who has a disability that she couldn’t see mum again totally broke me being honest.

My friends have been great. However I can’t help but feel like I’m enormously craving sexual intimacy since mum passed . I really don’t have any way to explain it. Though I’m no virgin and I’ve had a couple of successes I’d say I’m not that great with chatting to girls plus I’m a bit overweight and balding so not exactly handsome prince material. I also know I’m nowhere in the right headspace to be in a relationship. I know hook ups are a thing but previous hook ups ended badly for me. I know some may suggest a prostitute but money is an issue plus I don’t know if I could have the bottle to go through with it . Really wish I could turn all emotions off and be a robot and get away from it all but I can’t even do that. I really don’t know what to do