Long story short, I 27M and my gf 26F haven't been intimate in any capacity in the last 8-9 months and prior to that it was maybe 5 times since last August. She was going through some health issues at the time so understandably I wasnt pushy and just helped her through that time because her health was all that mattered. Fast forward to 6 months ago and I had a bit of a breakdown brought on my a mix of my own mental health issues and my so called family being assholes to me which spiraled and continued with stupid accusations on their side. So at the time I understood she saw me as sick and wasnt comfortable with being imitate with me but I'm better now, I've removed the toxic people from my life, I'm on better meds, talking to professionals for help and I'm focusing on college. But my sexual frustration is so bad, I have had moments when I get stomach pains from it. I spoke with a doctor and they basically said it happens and to let it pass. Anyways my gf told me the other day she doesn't know when or if she'll ever be ready or want to have sex again as she has no drive, she then told me to go find someone else to sleep with to get it out of my system, I realized this was a trap which it was, but since she mentioned it that's all I can think about is meeting someone to satisfy my needs. I love her to bits and I want to spend my life with her and I dont want to lose her but now she's planted this thought in my brain and its all I can focus on.