So I (22M) have been with my girlfriend (20F) for coming up to 10 months. We’ve had a few rough patches along the way which have not been the best. We moved in together quite early as it logistically seemed like a good idea at the time. I have always been bad with speaking, so I usually write stuff down, how I feel, if I have a note or whatever. I’d write it down and say that to them to make it easier for me or my brain runs wild. The flat we moved into, just renting, has been eating away my stress for ages. It was a rash decision and the building is a nightmare, so we’ve practically been living in a construction site for the past 6 months, with no wifi, and just issues. This has stressed me out as it’s been affecting me financially.

Not long ago, I wrote a note to my girlfriend about breaking up, just how I’ve been feeling recently. I had it in my bedside table, long story short she went and found it, read it, and just sort of ruined anything. I wrote the note but after thinking about stuff I wasn’t even sure I was going to tell her it. Anyway, she ruined that. We had a chat later that day and said I needed some time. I realised my stress has derived from the flat and my finances. So I’m moving out, but now I’ve made that decision, I’m sat deliberating whether staying with her is the right thing. I’m unsure if I’m happy, I am sometimes, sometimes I’m not, some stuff she does annoys me, and it’s forcing me out of living with her. With my thoughts coming back, it’s making me second guess my choice.

Am I being dumb for staying with her, it’s my first relationship. My thoughts are never good, anyone I’ve spoken to has said I should end it, I feel I’m being stupid, leading her into something I’m not up for. Writing this makes me feel like I’ve made up my mind. I don’t know whether I’m being dumb for not ending it, and whether it’s evident I’m scared to hurt her.