I m24, have a lot of sexual past traumas and issues with relationships, love, and attachment (Check other posts on my page for more information). I have an anxious attachment style so I typically love-bomb, and I hate this as well. I also get very anxious when people I talk to dont respond quickly, or if they dont show any interest. I feel very empty inside (caused by loneliness or a yearning for love, idk) and this emptiness makes me fiend for a connection. I talk to countless women online in an attempt to fill this void, and I'm sick of it. A lot of the women I talked to are sweet, and tell me I should focus on myself and work through my trauma. Otherwise I'll just rush into someone that is abusive and manipulative.

I want to know what are some things I can do to improve myself and get past this loneliness. I have a porn addiction, I masturbate a lot which is my main coping mechanism. I feel better after working out, but what else can I do to improve or get rid of this feeling of loneliness.

My daily life right now involves: work, chores/errands, workout then sitting in discord with my friend for the rest of the day. I dont really go out because I have to be available and around since I have to take care of a parent.

I like journaling and that makes me feel better but I never stay consistent. I want to know some strategies to feel less lonely, some better coping mechanisms, and how to heal from trauma. I cannot afford a therapist, so I need self-help techniques.