So in school I sucked and didn’t care about much as a kid, jumped into sales instead of college and finally felt achievement. Then I met anxiety.I’ve been over thinking ever since my dad died 6 years ago. When I get excited about something I talk. A lot. I could have a job interview in the bag and lose it after the interview from over communicating.A woman could be head over heels but I will talk about bad habits from past relationships or show that I’m not organized and she will be gone, this is an example as the one thing going well for me is my supportive gf of 2 years.

Why is this? I’m not blurting out intrusive thoughts or saying anything directly negative .. I just can’t shut the f*ck up , even when I know there’s no reason to be explaining anything. Is it my adhd? Past substance use? Just today I was invited to an elite boxing gym to try it out before paying , they don’t do free trials my first coach just so happened to be a mutual friend.. By the end of it he said I should just come in with the money because it’s not for everyone …. I say this curiously, not in the depressing tone that it sounds like. I have been diagnosed with depression and adhd but I’m starting to think they missed something