I (21M) want to fight my gfs (19F) ex, as far as I know they didn’t date that long and there was no abuse or anything else abnormal but I have a lot of built up anger from years of being bullied. I used a lot of that anger to get in good shape. I’m 6’5”, 210 lbs now and have honestly let go of my past for the most part but there’s something inside of me that won’t let go of the fact that I’ve never been in a real fight and I’m craving one but too busy to take martial arts classes, if I could do that then I definitely would. This has less to do with jealousy and more to do with the fact that he seems like a good target bc I knows he’s a piece of shit. He doesn’t know me or who I am so there’s be no connection there. I know my gf wouldn’t want me to but if I could do it without her finding out I’d probably do it still. Yes this is my first gf and I’m her first bf (I called him her ex her bf but it was just the guy who took her virginity). This may sound pathetic to some but I wouldn’t be the first person to have these thoughts. I’d appreciate if I could get actual advice on how to deal with these emotions too and not get bashed for just thinking about something I haven’t even done yet. And are there any guys out there who went through with something like this? What was your experience? I’m well aware of the consequences; jail, getting jumped or murdered but i feel like I can’t live life properly as a man until I’ve reclaimed my masculinity, and violence seems to me the most effective way to do that since that’s the way it was taken from me.