For context I say he’s my ex but in reality he was just a friends with benefits that really got messy and now he’s someone I really can’t stop thinking about. He’s a guy I delt with for four years and to make a long story short he basically would treat me like his boyfriend without the label and still talk to other people. Last time we spoke he decided to date a girl instead of myself and ugly words were exchanged. I think about him often but I finally came to the realization I miss him but the version of him In bed…… I haven’t found anyone who can please me sexually the way he did and if I’m being honest no guy I’ve met has had the same size dong as him and that’s what really bums me out. I’ve been thinking of just hitting him up to tell him I want to hookup if the chance was given but it would have to be from another number, account, etc since yk things got ugly with our argument and now I’m blocked. I just need someone else’s Input i fear that I might be thinking with the wrong head if you catch my drift.