I have friends currently held in Gaza and just arrived in Israel in Bnei Brak to be with my family. I'm not typically a person who is open about his feelings with his family and doesn't like to share anything. I learned about them when I read the stories of some kidnapped people and saw their faces on the posters. I lost some weight, and I fear I developed some form of depression. My boss gave me some free time, and I want to quit because I don't feel well. I don't even mourn properly. I feel they're dead because Israel won't bargain for dead bodies. I didn't even take my final goodbye with them.I even feel like a bad person because I wish for the death of an ethnic race, which is the root of this all.

How do you cope with this?