I can’t sleep because I’ve been thinking about this maybe I think I just feel sad about it. I’m back home from college for the holidays. I usually spend lots of time with my friend group from high school during breaks. We were inseparable even after high school and have been close friends (the four of us) since 9th grade. But in the past year, one of my closest friends in the friend group has changed a lot in college. Last summer we had a small falling out because he said something very misogynistic which he apologized for. But this past semester a roommate of his was sexually assaulted and he(my friend) processed to dox the victim and call them a lier because the assaulter was an ex girlfriend of his. Anyways. It was all too messy for me and I just decided I wanted to distance myself from him. He’s just changed so much that he’s not really someone I want as a friend anymore. I’ve haven’t really texted the group chat in a while and I know he talks to my friends about me. Today I found out he’s hosting a New Year’s Eve gathering with all my closest friends from home. Even my best friend was invited. I feel sad that I will be spending New Year’s Eve alone and they will be partying it up with him.