I’ve been in a relationship for over 3 years, engaged for two years. Over a year ago my fiancés mental health completely tanked (he’s bipolar) he started getting verbally abusive and even physically abusive on one or two occasions. He hasn’t been abusive in a few months but I find myself making little steps to finally leave here and there. A week ago I met my new neighbour and it just stopped me in my tracks. I got incredibly nervous and giddy. I’ve gotten to know him as a friend and he just makes me very happy. I find myself staring at my phone just waiting to see him or going outside to walk my dog hoping I run into him. My fiancé is my best friend and I never want to lose what friendship we have. Every few months I try to convince myself to leave him but I never go through with it… He doesn’t compliment me, starves me of attention and love and we have sex once every 3 months maybe twice if we are lucky. I have no idea what to do… my fiancé has been my everything for so long and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to leave him… I just feel so guilty for thinking about my neighbour. I usually don’t find other people attactive but there was just something about him when I see him my heart just flutters.. Anyways any advice would help