T/W: sex crimes, unaliving, rituals, domestic abuse

TLDR; royally pissed off my ex bf before he moved out, a few months later he pleaded with me to let him come back to our apartment to “see if he left things” … moving out today I found industrial buckets and large tarps hidden in a closet. He has previously abused me and sexually assaulted me - didn’t report at the time because I stayed with him.

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I caught my ex cheating on me several months ago and kicked him out of our home, shit happens and that’s fine, but not only did he cheat, he also lied to everyone about it, including the other woman. I was understandably angry and brought up to him the fact that he had previously r***d me in our home, emotionally abused me, threatened to get physical, etc. I also told him he’s lucky I didn’t expose him for what he truly is (a flaming narcissist and an abuser), and a cheater.

Weeks after he moved out and the smoke had cleared slightly, he asked me if he could come by the apartment before he moved away (we lived in NC and he was moving to MA), he wanted to check and make sure he hadn’t left anything behind. Considering our circumstances, however, I told him no, and that I never want to see him again.

Today, I was clearing out the apartment we shared to move somewhere new for a fresh start, and found several large industrial buckets and large tarps hidden in the corner of the coat closet in my apartment.

I realize that this sounds insanely outlandish and like I’m jumping to conclusions, but I have reasons to jump to this conclusion - (1) he never went camping or hiking to need these things, (2) he once told me if the purge was real and he could get away with anything, he’d r**e someone, (3) once he admitted he had fantasies about sexualizing satanic rituals where he would sacrifice a sexual partner, (4) one night tried to get me to role play one of his twisted fantasies with him and said “i could kill you right now” while we were cuddling, scared the hell out of me and made me cry.

what would you do? should i do anything? i’m so uneasy over this and feeling traumatized all over again after finding what seem like materials to carry something like this out.