I'm a guy in my early 20s with really really serious mommy issues and my art mentor is abt 10 years older than me and she's giving me mommy vibes lately and Ive been interpreting things she's said as flirting and I feel fucking terrible about it. She has a partner and I don't want to fuck anything up in anyway, but here's where it gets really fucking bad. I went through her portfolio an hour ago and saw her nude self portraits with her boobs hanging out and I jerked off to them. I feel bad about it, but this is literally one of the most fufilling and rewarding relationships in my life, maybe ever, and I don't want to do anything to ruin it, but I don't know how I can look her in the eyes again after I just jerked off to her. I feel like complete shit.