So first I did make a post similar to this but was met with criticism saying that making jokes of this nature is wrong and I understand and agree with that, I wouldn’t make a joke of that nature in almost any circumstance.

So back in October of last year I was talking with some coworkers at the post office about my experience with working at a convenience store. Me being me, I try to make a few shitty jokes in the process, but one of which was taken out of context into being a racist joke where the punchline was about black people being better off in jail.

Thing is I don’t believe that at all and wouldn’t joke about it, and though I can’t remember the actual joke I would wager it was something closer to certain homeless people being locked away or something, but I genuinely don’t remember, I just know it wasn’t racist in any capacity, though it was taken that way.

What’s more is there’s an online community I frequent sometimes and I ranted about the joke being misconstrued there, only for it to be thrown back in my face as an example of me being an asshole when I really don’t have much in the way of genuine thought or opinions, due to feeling like every opinion I ever had was just wrong in general.

Aside from that though sometimes it just pops back into my head and I hate it. I haven’t made any jokes or references to it but it keeps popping up, getting thrown in my face. A constant reminder of something I didn’t exactly do and no matter how I try to explain it it seems like no one believes me.

I want to try and put it behind me, but I just don’t know how