I am really grateful that Reddit exists and groups like this exist.

I tried to post this in a mental health sub.. but maybe this sub is better idk? Maybe other adults struggle with this too.

In my every day life I am really really fucking bad with expressing my emotions. The sad ones atleast. I always feel like a burden onto other people (I wonder is this victim complex?) and overall I feel lime I'm not good enough and I DONT KNOW WHY. It's almost like it's hard for me to congralute myself without a "but" and I just don't get it.

Like.. “I’m really proud of you cooking, but you could be better at XYZ” I don’t know if this is more me trying to keep myself “grounded and humble” or if this is me just bullying and picking on myself. Idk??

I am very proud of myself. I have my own car that I pay off all by myself, I'm 23 and just got my first apartment, I am in Therapy and I can afford to buy food and I get a free education (yay to having a single mom). My school is covered in grants . I have so many things to be grateful for. Yet Loneliness always seems to creep up when I miss my ex the most. He made me feel seen, wanted and loved. And I wish I could do that for myself. I feel like I don't have any friends to talk to about this because l've never talked to them about my DEEP emotions before. How could I start now???

IM the bubbly friend, IM the kind friend, IM the "I'm here to listen to you friend". How do I get people to listen to ME. I'm tired of only expressing "happy" emotions. It's so hard for me to express other emotions because l've never done it before. lok what I'm expecting from this. But god it feels good to vent.