i relapsed this morning. i don’t know why. nothing set me off. if anything i had a good day just reading in the car and going with my mom to a big supermarket/plaza an hour away. but i went home and went to the bathroom and i relapsed. i then just went on with my day and hung out with my friend. i’ve been feeling on and off all day. me and my friend got our hands on some drinks. nothing crazy just mike’s hard lemonade since we both work in the morning. i thought alcohol was fine on my zoloft, but i mixed up my zoloft (200 mg) with my atarax (which is okay to mix with alcohol). i didn’t finish the bottle, maybe a good 3/4s of it. but i looked it up and people say they feel even worse depressive symptoms and suicidal ideation and it takes a week to feel better. i was already out of it without the mixing of alcohol and medication but i’m scared something worse will happen.