I (26) went deep into a depressive episode and attempted to unalive my self. However before I did that, I self harmed (cut) all over my arm. I’m a teacher. These kids are going to question why I’m wearing a sweater. These buildings get very hot. At the same time I risk students finding out their teacher is a disaster person. A few found out I went to the psych ward last school year. In this school year I’ve gone three times in increasingly worse attempts. Im the unstable teacher who’s got scars for miles on their arm. And I wanna make more. Relapse isn’t fun. I wish I never started. Im 22 days clean but the relapse is drumming in my veins.