Been in search of a match into a niche desire I can't openly state out in life, in general, conversations or on swipy apps; I'm here, specifically posting it on the fringes of internet for the great thing I had once knowing I want to find it all again so some background/overview on my history of ANR/ABF, and maybe even new perspective for how natural this all is;

• Background:

I first stumbled into ABF years ago incidentally and loved it, with a woman who was a lactating mom, but didn't tell me, and it was a young fun hookup that happened amidst one of those bar-hopping nights where we hit it off.. Half-tipsy, I sucked away in foreplay tasting sweet liquid, not knowing what was happening.. but instinctively in that moment just latched on sucking milk for the first conscious time in life, later recognizing this was nursing/suckling/breastfeeding. I'd never think "ANR" was something I'd be into or even like

That was the first, a lactating single woman I encountered. I've met other lactating women over the years.. by chance.. all were similarly a surprise of breast-sucking-play turned nursing-breast-feeding during sex.. None were by a search, all just shear luck.. best surprise for me as I thoroughly did enjoy nursing, so much that sex and ANR were equal in my mind and both together I'd be suspended in the moment so ofcourse we kept this going as FWB with ABF/ANR twists.. but we didn't use that term or call it a kink, we just did this.. it's now been so very long since I've had someone for this.. ofcourse aside the non-ABF almost ANR'ish dry Breastplay that naturally has been my thing with bustier non-lactating

Lately, I've  been feening for ANR (ABF) again.. idk, there's something very alluring about the oh so syrupy sweetness straight from the source, as soon as it'd hit my taste buds.. I knew exactly what to do and Breastplay was definitely a big part of the experience itself.. the warmth, connection, endorphin rush was unparalleled from just the wildest sex alone.. my most satisfying sexual experiences have been hot milky busty FWB riding me, straddled me cowgirl, as I suckled from each back/forth, pulling, gripping, thrusted in and while there was always more in bed, that stands out.. maybe because how long ago or because it was that good

As my search for ANR may be a little different than others, and I know there's always a spectrum of people into things I'll be upfront and transparent here in the hope of a match.. this is erotic and sexually charged for me.. same intimacy.. as in the same realm of doing doggy or giving/getting oral, I enjoy tit-sucking, grabbing, a strong latch onto the nipple, tonguing licking areolas, nibbling, face nuzzled in play etc, with or without the release of milk, more carnal and lustful; something truly satisfying to me is passion filled & intense, in other words more active ANR/Breastplay appeals to me; ABF is a more rare to find.. I haven't induced anyone before although I'd be up for it if things work for time commitment but to be clear, my ABF experiences was only from already lactating women.. albeit they hadn't all done ABF.. until me

Some people might feel ANR/ABF means only the sensual softer mellow head in lap suckling but that's not my desire, this isn't selfless worship or nurturing, it's sexually fulfilling and so that thing that gives me pleasure in bed during play. It's not Mommy kink, not Hucow, not Breast torture or any of those kinks; it's more than foreplay fun and liking big tits and it's sucking plus suckling.. it's amorous and instinctive

• Overview:

I've been missing ANR connections I've enjoyed in the past, but most importantly, I do thoroughly love Breastplay, from kissing, suckling/sucking, nibbling/biting, feeling/grabbing, caressing, teasing, etc.. best being enjoying fully a woman straddling me as a hand grips onto a buttcheek the other a breast while the other breast/nipple engorges in my mouth arched back pulling in for closeness or laying atop burying my face, be it topless, in nice lingerie, half undress or nude depending on the exact nature of our connection/situation or where the evening is in the overarching play between us as I do tend to favor breastplay in foreplay, in lieu of ANR.. and I go back throughout the night before, during, after sex

All I know is, I love being straddled for such play, whether it be wet/dry nurse or breastplay.. I love both "Tits & Ass" but while that's true if larger Cs and bigger my focus/attention tends to be up top..just a fact.. I love both, but more drawn to DDs than Phat Ass'.. As much as I like Ass, I never eat it, milk however, I sucked instinctively and never agonized or thought twice about it.. I'm searching for something with a woman whether she happens to be lactating or is wanting to induce, or just enjoys that dry suckling general arousing physical sensations of ANR.. maybe you're wanting such a specific connection or something similar to it or along this and think we'll mesh well for Breastplay/Adult Nursing play

I know from random happenstance in life, dating, hookups and just open-minded play that women out there enjoy this too.. Not everyone is lactating or seeking to breastfeed per say but most if not all women I've encountered have liked breast-play to some degree; some women being sensitive can't take rougher or extended sucking, some need lighter nipple attention while others love a harder sucked rougher biting sensation, etc.. maybe there's lactating women who don't know they'd enjoy full-nursing, so it hasn't happened.. maybe there's women just wanting to enjoy dry-nursing fun but they haven't had indulged in that for whatever reason

Though ultimately I'm seeking Kinky FWB/Play Partner.. I'd enjoy the regular foreplay, cuddled, nursing rendezvous. I'd love half undress, making out, sucking/breastplay to more; Truth is when I'm tired/burning out/high stress then it's not some relaxation massage that gets me to a perfect level of zen state, it's long sustained suckling/nursing/breastplay.. or me laying back being pleased with non-stop oral, but it's rare to find women of stamina/desire in long sustained bjs and tbh, both are equally as fun for me, albeit very different and of course I enjoy a mix of things in bed..I'm a Kinkster,  the main thing that energizes me is spirited fun kinkier sex, this is one particular niche desire, less stated among many but until I find this, there's just some breast-play during sex and I pull back for those too sensitive of a nipple or overall

If interested, you can see my post history on everything I'm into; it's just my natural impulse to do, something that feels like isn't some outlier type interest, just normal.. as natural as kissing, oral and sex is.. I find Breastplay, ANR and ABF. Ideally, I want to find the right match who sees it the same, in an overarching great FWB connection, a thing we enjoy but there doesn't seem to be the same overlap for ANR for the type of kinkier women I mesh with for everything else.. that's why I'm posting this separately with all-around detail to see if I can find a worthwhile ongoing regular fun match

• Personals:

Me: 36, 6'0", Canadian born of South Asian/Indian descent; Brown Man. Average/DadBod, Shaved Head and No Beard, Tattooed. Atrractive, Single, Busy, Mature, Professional. I'm clean/DDF. Seeking something ongoing/regular. Live Alone and I Can Host in Burnaby, evenings/weekends is preferred

You: single, near my area, early-20s to late-40s, clean/DDF, any background, from petite to curvier/slimthick/thick and tbh curvy/busty is my ideal but I'm not into bbw bodytypes. Seeking ANR, but best if also wanting a Play Partner/FWB (introduce yourself with some detail / what you're wanting)

Note: Even when it comes to uncommon desire like this is, I believe there's got to be overall chemistry beyond just our mutual interest for wet or dry adult nursing or in breastplay so I prefer SFW Pic swap, social meetup to determine vibe to see how we click IRL, if that goes well then get intimate.

I'm not in a rush or overly eager for just a willing person, it matters that beyond liking ANR/ABF we do have chemistry because I want something: consistent, regular, ongoing.. it is not ANR if it's some random one-off suckling breastplay, I wouldn't write detail post for random tit sucking hookups

• Clarifying:

I switch between writing both ABF and ANR because to me ABF is descriptive of Lactation and Wet Nursing, whereas ANR can be either Non-Lactating/Dry or Lactating/Wet, as it's more indicative of the Breastplay/Suckling Connection, and I've only had this IRL, searching online for it is different so I'm trying to holistically articulate experiences and goal;

To clarify, as much as I enjoy ABF itself, I want ANR overall also, I'm not interested by the Hucow kink.. Personally, I'm into having some chemistry or vibing well within such play, afterall in my past, I happened across a few single women who happened to be lactating, unknown to me, a fluke, they enjoyed this sexually too when mid-hooking-up I "nursed".. before/after them, there's been 'tit-sucking-breastplay' fun but the key difference in ANR was they were engorged with milk so attention was more focused & play was extended

And, I'm aware enough to know this isn't a Mommy kink or stemming from anywhere other than being something fun so if it's a Mommy kink for you then it just won't work well, because the energy/vibe in that would be as off as it would be in a Hucow kink; neither would likely be enjoyable to me, so I'm being proactive in dissuading either type of interest even writing nursing or feeding comes off jarring if honest especially when distancing from Hucow or Mommy kinks, but the common name term is what it is albeit keeps great play/connection/activity as taboo from many who'd love it. whereas terms like tit-sucking, nipple-sucking or breat-play etc all are narrow compared to adult-nursing-relationship..

ABF naturally happened in bed, it opened my eyes to ANR.. It was hot and passionate, it was lustful, it was part of sex; it felt natural and normal when it happened, so it is normal along with everything else I enjoy in bed, it's just what I like. Had I not experienced ABF in sex, then I wouldn't even say the term ANR, I'd just be a guy who loves Tits & Breastplay, and I'd probably not even use terms like breastplay to say it but there'd just be my attention on tits, like before I nursed

Now whether dry or wet, this is on my mind, I want it again. I want a match who enjoys the intimacy and pleasure from (any) ANR/ABF/Breastplay, that she gets from kissing, sex, oral, and sees it as another natural expression of intimacy. Someone who matches me well overall in bed is preferred because of course I want it all: I have a high libido, enjoy a variety of play in bed, and my lips are always torn between Lips vs Tits, while my hands are torn between Ass vs Tits.. I'm not a passive suckler wanting sensual nursing.. I like a more passionate, intense, energetic breastplay/sex/ANR..