It's a post about breast feeding. You either clicked on this because of something stirring within your heart or curiosity over the title. My words are here to invite you to stay, to have an experience.

I've had a rather eventful life, from being born into a neglectful household and being afflicted with chronic conditions I was informed were a death sentence, to completely curing everything by my own hand, into a level of health I saw only in my dreams, climbing a mountain barefoot in Scotland, taking a fight in Thailand, running for miles in the mountains of my homeland upon waking up, watching a sunrise with a smile and joy in my eyes, replacing the previous echo of pain.

As my knowledge grew over the years I felt called to travel, to put on seminars, to retrain people to be free of pain, release trauma, go beyond limiting patterns, I always end up where I need to be. Amazing experiences continue to flow from my works and I feel a constant state of gratitude, of joy that everything I went through is allowing me to transform the world.

Every day I wake up and stretch towards the sky, I bow down to the earth. I give thanks to the maternal, the mother, the universe, the world around me. I feel so happy, so supported, but a faint desire always dances around the corners of my mind, flitting between waking and sleeping. I see the power of surrendering, of healing, of being supported on a daily basis, just how incredible the feminine energy is in it's pure, unadulterated form, and to a degree, I crave that. It was an experience I never had and something, that still to this day, I wonder if it is indispensable as an ingredient for the chrysalis of human evolution.

Pure, unconditional love, a safe place, somewhere where all the ideas under the stars can be though of and discussed. Somewhere where you will always be held, supported, loved. A warm chest with a beating heart that holds an intensity to love, to nurture, that matches your own to such a fervour, it takes your breath away, A connection that binds the deepest parts of our being. The same way a yogic master might use khechari mudra to unite body mind and soul or a Taoist immortal might use the knowledge of microcosm and macrocosm within himself to connect heaven and earth, I see the subtleties within this as earth shaking. The connection of heart to heart, the connection of safety, of true relaxation, of unconditional love moving from physical, to literally drinking in the light from her heart as it illuminates your brain, uplifts your soul. The incredible power to channel pure feminine energy in a way that can uplift and inspire like nothing else can, to raise a peasant to a King, a broken man into a Champion. The alchemical philosophers stone on a physical, emotional and spiritual level.

I want someone who will gaze into my eyes unflinchingly, who's heart is open and full, who understands femininity, and who's chest holds the grounded intensity of love found within my own.

Whoever you may be, I salute you.

I have deliberately made this in a way that is not comprehensible to everyone. If I am meant to have what I desire, the universe will find a forum to provide it, it always has, always will. Perhaps here, perhaps in another way. If I am not, so be it, there is no sense holding on. If you feel as though I have been speaking to you, reach out.

x

El