I have recently found myself in need of companionship, a feeling I am not greatly familiar with. Circumstances in my life have convinced me for years that I'd be better off alone, either out of fear of getting hurt, unintentionally hurting someone else, or because I just don't have a healthy outlook on what "intimacy" really is because I haven't really experienced it before. It was, and still is, a foreign concept to me that I have kept at arms length my entire adult life, purely because it scared me. Not to mention being 6'3 and like 320 doesn't lend to much confidence, especially in my younger years.

But something has changed recently. Maybe its the new medication, or the changing weather, but something is different. My isolationist attitude is waning slightly, and I'm feeling a strange but persistent urge for companionship. Not necessarily sexual, I don't know if it has waned THAT much, but still intimate. An almost maternal sort of intimacy that promotes safety, security and mutual bonding, something I've found myself craving as of late. I started thinking about ANR.

I started thinking about you, whoever you may be.

I've had thoughts about you on my lap, nestling my face in your soft cleavage while you play with my hair, maybe while humming softly. Though this may not be the most physically pleasing part, it feels like it's the most relaxing. Like chicken noodle soup for the soul. But of course thats only the beginning.

Kissing, licking sucking... I want to find the best way to make you feel good. While I'm getting just as much enjoyment out of this, I know that it isn't for me. Its all about you. You're giving me that intimacy that I now find myself desperately needing and I fully intend to reward you for that.

And then, of course, your nipple. The ultimate source of bonding between a mother and her child, now between you and me. I don't know if you are lactating or not, but if you are then I look forward tasting you, and the sweet milk that you have given to me. If not, then I look forward to becoming a part of your journey to making it happen. I hope that we can make your dreams come true.

If you've made it this far and haven't barfed from the sappiness yet, then I hope that means you at least understand what I'm trying to say. If so, and you find yourself having similar feelings, then don't hesitate to message me. I may be shy at first as this is all very new to me, but hopefully we can both achieve what we are looking for, with eachothers help. I look forward to meeting you.