A bit of backstory. So I am the guy in this relationship and my partner expressed multiple times over the last few years a desire to lactate and the kinky fun that follows. I looked into the protocols (this group was super helpful) and brought her the scoop on best practices. She confessed that all this sounded like a big time commitment and she wasn’t sure she would actually do it. We also have a Dominant/Submissive play style and I asked if she would enjoy the routine as orders that must be followed instead of just her own willpower. She got REALLY excited about that idea so here we are. We have a progress chart with times to check off (she is very task oriented!) there are rewards for perfect days and perfect streaks, etc. She’s committed to the schedule, but until further notice isn’t interested in supplements and drugs. Yes, she’s a submissive, but her body, her choice. Whether or not she actually produces is not the goal at this point.

Now the fun updates. She also has restless leg syndrome which is one of those things that sounded phony when I first heard of it, but is just awful to live with if you have it. There are nights when she’s exhausted, but her nervous system just won’t switch off to allow her to sleep. As much as she loves skin to skin suckling (we regularly to mornings and bedtime this way), it’s often been me that offers longer duration and softer stimulation as a way to calm her body and turn off her busy mind allowing her to sleep. She was timid toward accepting my offers at first, then grew a lot more comfortable.

Dun-dun-duuuun. Last night was the first night she asked me without me offering first!

Oh.
Em.
Gee.

We both love it, but this feels like a really amazing “moment” between us. I’m so grateful she sees this as a tool she can use to slow down and unwind. I’m also so honored to be part of it. We are both ultra-ultra-touch people so I’m always welcoming and enthusiastic. These quiet moments of connection weren’t exactly what we had in mind when we started this process, but wow. It’s a perfect accident.

Parallel to that, we got all off-track with the schedule last week and then went to Vegas for the weekend and really got off target. I told her yesterday that after a few days of going without these dedicated sessions and then starting anew, I get that little tender spot on the roof of my mouth. It’s painful or unpleasant, it’s just a sensation that lingers all day. I didn’t realize how much I missed it. I really did. Now that the tender spot is back, I’m all the happier for it.  

One of our conversations over the weekend were about how this journey feels at once so kinky and naughty (her wearing TENS in public and going to Costco for one…) but also so deeply feminine and connective. It’s like our actions take on whatever meaning we give them in that moment. I also want to give a shout to this group, the wisdom, the community. It’s great. Thanks to everyone.

So some backstory. I'm the guy in this relationship and my partner expressed interest multiple times in lactation and the kinky fun that follows. She never had kids herself and wasn't sure it even worked. I spent some time researching the protocols et cetera and came back to her with the scoop. She confessed that sounded like a big time commitment and wasn't sure she would follow it just because. We also have a Dominant/submissive play dynamic and I asked if she would approach the protocols less like "work" if they were instructions she was ordered to follow and she got REALLY excited about that idea. She's committed to to the suckling and pumping and TENS on schedule, but she's stopping short of supplements and drugs until further notice.So now there is a progress chart and rewards for perfect days and perfect streaks etc. I'll be honest, a lot of "life" has gotten