So, I gave birth to my baby on June 5th, and apparently had a quick and relatively "easy" birth (on paper, but it did NOT feel quick or easy) The adoptive parents were allowed in the hospital during recovery, they had a separate room. They would take her to their room and then bring her to me every 3 hours to nurse, then they brought me to my airbnb from the hospital. I spent the first 3 days going over to their house for about 4 hours per day, nursing when I arrived and before I left, getting some good bonding time with baby. I feel really great about my choice, and spending those few days with them, seeing how awesome they were with her really made me feel like this was absolutely the best decision for everyone. I feel happy, and honestly a little relieved because I knew I wasn't ready to be a parent, and they spent the last 3 years preparing. I just know that a lot of the feedback I received from birth parents when I first started thinking about adoption was "don't do it, you'll regret it forever" I just want to put it out there for anyone else who may be considering placing their child, that isn't always true, you won't really know how you'll feel until you get to that point, but you don't have to sign the paperwork right away, you always have time to think about it. For me, after that third day I was sure and ready and I have no regrets. I know my little one is going to have a wonderful life with great parents and I have been able to actually relax while recovering, and they send me pics almost every day, and I am still pumping for them, so they come by every few days to pick up milk. They're really great with communication and making sure I'm comfortable with the level of contact we have. So, TLDR: I feel great about my adoption decision, and I know that's not a common emotion, but it can happen y'all.