My friend and I are both adopted transracially/transnationally. She's currently going through the process of find her birth family, because I guess she has information on them or whatever.

Meanwhile, I don't have any information like that. I've never felt a need to contact my birth family and I'm not even sure there's a way for me to do that. But everytime my friend tries to talk to me about how the process is going, I shut down. I want to be happy for her, I really do. But it upsets me so much that she gets that option and I don't, and I wish there was a way for me to tell her that I can't keep supporting her. I know she's excited and no one else probably understands, but I just can't do it. She mentioned her cousin adding her on Facebook and I broke down.

What do I do in this situation? I want to be supportive but I just feel like it's tearing me apart. Someone please help me.