When I joined this reddit a few weeks ago, I didnt get the word "fog". Didnt know what people were talking about.Then someone explained it. I said ok thats what it is. Sent the papers to for my son to fond me, and it started me processing, and now, God is starting to walk me through it, and pointing it out, and I get it, the fog, what it is, what that word means, and all that comes with it. If I hadn't found this Reddit, I would not understand what I am going through right now, at least what it IS. Its like, now I know, that green shit is grass, but I have 0 understanding of the nature of grass, or what to expect from grass, or what to be prepared for from grass, replace grass with fog and thats where Im at.

Update: Fear, Obligation, and Guilt. The reason I didnt remember Obligation is because God had walked me through Obligation before with prior trauma healing, so that part is something we came through without the FOG label prior to this, and I understand. I dealt with the fear and guilt from the being an adoptee, but have not dealt with it as a bio, from that side, and man that feels so much bigger than the fear and guilt as an adoptee.

I know one thing, He's never let me out of a "healing box" he dropped me in before, wont start now, and out is THROUGH, so, easier to just start walking, 0 point in resistance or attempted escape. "If you run, you only die tired."