Definitely charged with various emotions right now but I'll try my best to keep this as concise as possible. I feel like no matter what house ive lived in, I end up feeling like a burden. Now of course in many ways but for sake of the post I mean in terms of taking up space with my physical belongings. The cycle goes as such: I buy stuff impulsively, give it a week I feel like I have wayyy too much and immediately need to get rid of my belongings. This has been constant at the home of my adoptive parents, the home I lived in with my ex-husband, and now the home I live in with my current partner. As soon as I feel the need to purge my belongings I start hyperfixating on it, if I can't in the moment then my mood shifts, I'm irritable, I feel like a nightmare to be around and of course the burden cycles continue over various areas. Even now after a conversation with my partner my only solution I could think of was keep my belongings in my car so our place only has what I need to function on a day to day basis, clothes etc.. I have a couple paintings I chose up on our walls.. that's it. Every time I see even my laptop on the table it drives me crazy. So ya as a result that was my solution. My goal is to own a total of not more than 3 suitcases of my belongings. Whether it's cause of the space I take up or the need to escape if need be, or travel back to my parents if they ever need me as they age. I can't allow myself to take up space or feel comfortable or settled. This in turn creates negative cycles with my loved ones. Not sure if what I'm doing is right, or how to handle these behaviours but any and all advice would be greatly appreciated 😓 (sorry this didn't end up being as concise as I hoped)