Birthday month blues? Maybe that's what I have. I was adopted as an infant and found at at 21 that the day celebrated is just a date put at the time of adoption. After speaking to my bio mom back then I found out I was born on a different day (in December). Ever since Ive ceased to accept the birthday celebrated with my adopted family. My actual date is a day my adoptive sister and close friends know and adhere to but something my AP refuse to acknowledge. I also don't know if I should mourn or celebrate that day. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel around both days anymore. I don't necessarily want to be celebrated either. I just feel alot of grief during the month. Like alot. And I can't really share that grief with my adoptive parents - I try to protect their feelings as much as possible. I actually don't know how much of this post makes sense at this point. But simply put, I'm struggling alot with my emotions and don't know what's right or wrong to feel right now. Just feel kinda grey :/