Things to remember 1 some times it's ok to do nothing always doing something makes you stand out more than anything sometimes doing nothing is better and you won't be noticed people's eyes catch movement and shifts of light they don't catch nothing

2 it's ok to feel things break down cry and remember things but don't just drowned in them and let them over take you honestly think and try to process them be angry be sad feel the emotions and be mindful make a conscious effort to think back and accept the choices you made that got you to this point accept them but don't forget them things that where outof your control or you where to weak to stop happening recognize what you need to change and do to become strong enought they don't happen again the experiences you've had are what helped make you stronger things you've lost can be replaced the time you've wasted drowing in self pity and self hate and the negative thoughts can't

3:don't morn people who aren't dead if you truly want them in your life again haunt them like you're a ghost and show them you're different than your past and if they can't see it let them become dead to you but don't give up because you may not have them now. It's not their fault you don't there's gonna be a day when they are gonna need you or days when they are going to need help like you do now and if youre not able to be there for them when they need something even if it's in 10 15 years they are just going to think and feel the same things towards you that you feel towards you them do you really want to be exactly like them. 4 breath deep if you don't your anxiety is just going to over whelm you that much faster cleaning isn't always the thing to do when you need to do something find a safe area take a walk do some yoga climb a fucking tree just move your body

5remember at this point and future instances the easiest way to avoid going back to jail is to just stop doing shit to get you in trouble or get the cops attention God help me you spent how many years of your life doing that just cause other people wanted to get you in trouble and they did the first time or two doesn't mean you gotta keep doing it 6 your exs former friends and family memebers others every one except those who actually harmed you solely for their own pleasure when they called the cops when shit went side ways and every thing yes they where wrong in that moment and all the others but if you think In some of those cases your gonna realize it was in retaliation of what ever you'd done before to them that hurt or bothered them it doesn't make it right but remember you're not exactly a saint your self

7always expect a snake to be a snake you know they will strike if you make the entire wrong move regardless what you feel people owe you you'll get what they owe you returned if they think the same as you so don't expect people who have hurt you or owe you to help you you know they won't unless it benefits them If they had any sense of kindness they would have actually helped you by now letting you sleep in the lot of a shop isn't really helping

8 know who you are now not who you used to be it's strangers are more willing to help some one get up from a fall when the person admits and shows they need help don't try and hide where your at in life show people you're willing and ready to climb up from the bottom you just need help every one loves underdog stories and wants to be a part of some blind side type shit

9it's ok to show your weaknesses and vulnerabilities to people it's not okay to let them get away for using and exploiting them don't hold a grudge be strong enough and smart enough to handle it when they try to watch and listen they will usually give them selves away before they do whent hey do strike hard and decisively or run fast when they have your claws in you it's to late

10know that if what you've tried before doesn't work there's not much use trying it again think up new plans and strategies don't get stuck on one idea be wise enough to have many

11 remember shits hard right now and people think the worst of you but it can't get better and they won't change their minds if you arnt around to do it don't let them win be better than you where learn and grow till the day comes you're actually as far above them as they think they are you