Going into day two following a month-long tolerance break. Going strong on the basis of an absolutely flawless opening slam, big register, swift plunge with a tiny re-register to let the last few undissolved bits of Tina get melted by hot tweaker blood and pushed right back into my bloodstream.

Now, prepping 70 units into a dense, syrupy serum, I'm all pensive and wishing I had some female company either watching and/or doing their own smashes, via cam or IRL (416/905 here).

But pensive me looking farther ahead and wishes there was a woman out there who has decided to embrace the needle. I DON'T recommend anyone take it up, but if your mind is made up, I want to join you for the journey, help where I can, and generally keep an eye out for you so that while you are undergoing this transformation, you are as safe as you can possibly be under the circumstances.

Does that make me awful?