I prepared for the trip by - researching the substance for 2 years - talking about what I can expect with my trip sitter - cleaning the house - and ensuring I had nowhere to be for the next two days

The sky got brighter and muscles felt weird and foriegn. Started feeling intense stomach pain, but in the moment if felt like energy in my chest bubbling up. Being indoors started to create anxiety and I went back and forth several times between my living room and back yard trying to figure out what to do with my anxiety. Eventually. My trip sitter and I take a walk and and it seems to help. Along my walk I saw several visual distortions. I saw the bark on trees flow like a river. I saw grass fold in on itself like a story book. The most intense and frightening visual was looking down at my phone and seeing a picture of my wife and then watching the Image plunge down into a pit and saw my wife turn very reptilian and snake-like. My sitter and I made our way home and I sat inside for awhile but decided it was too much. I then decided to head outside again and smoked a very small bowl with the help of my sitter. The weed definitely helped me to ground me because it helped me put what I was experiencing in a more familiar context. We then sat around the campfire where I felt like my normal perceived reality was a flat piece of paper and that just behind it was an entire universe I couldn't fathom. It felt almost lovecraftian in nature. I was frightened to look past it, until I realized that the flames of the campfire were a tear in the paper and that I could safely peer from this side of reality without fully losing myself to the void. I also came to the conclusion that acid feels so foriegn that it's almost like unlocking an emotion that I had never expired before. After this effects started to subside. I spent the rest of the night watching shitts creek with my roommates and had a chill time. I then spent the rest of the night awake feeling unable to fully rest. This morning I now feel very obtuse and unable to fully connect to reality.

Overall the trip was far to strange to be either good or bad. It was simply so alien that I am having a hard time understanding what I've experienced. It definitely felt more negative than positive but in my set, setting, and harm reduction techniques I was able to avoid outright terror. I frankly don't know when or if I will do this again. Frankly my come down doesn't feel great so I would love encouragement from you all. Thanks freinds!